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————老叶新绿,心也绿了。一
到今天,签三方满一个月了。
从实习单位笑笑离开,面对四处满足的面孔,不觉也会后脊发凉,不得心安。
每次转换环境都是信心满满,但是最近一两次的经历倒是让自己提心吊胆。
面对脚下这条路,比较别人,剩下的,也只有自信了吧。
笑。二
最近状态一直不好。
有论文和清考压着,却每天很晚睁开眼睛,又很晚闭上眼睛。
没有动力,即使换回了运动装,依然是位沉重世故的叔叔。
就连学院的孩子们也会笑着伸出右手,握一握叫叔叔。
站在宿舍的窗口,看五号楼前赶教室的孩子们,到自习室里坐坐,
真的该走了。三
据lp说,女生宿舍很空,大家都在家为工作焦虑,享受最后的大学。
男生楼,依然茁壮生长着盖饭加DOTA,还有时不时会被提起的清考。
宿舍大叔和蔼了很多,记分板上的65分已经定居。
开始考虑租房子,算计工资支出流向,
房租、餐饮、储蓄、没了。
呵呵,日子。四
计划的出行还在计划中,觉得自己永远都不会把日子过得从容。
时不时的丢一次自己,然后再在压力下找回。
我的那些书,我的那些音乐,
就像藏民眼里的珠穆朗玛,熟悉、亲切,陌生、敬畏。
是时候准备好自己了,去享受春风的抚摸。五
很喜欢陈果这版《风继续吹》,
比起哥哥,少了丝激情,多了份温存。
每次聆听,心跳仿佛舒缓,不自觉地轻闭双眼。
多想浸淫在这歌声中,让自己仅剩心跳、呼吸,和那21克。 -
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我现在焦虑,焦虑到不能集中精力到某一件事情上。
两个多月,每天睁眼后第一件事情就是开电脑上网看邮箱。
thank god,gmail的打开速度没有慢到让人发指,不然每个迷人的清晨都会变成焦虑的黄昏。二
十一月二日,第一个工作笔试。
十一月廿日,第一个工作面试。
然后在每个周末搭乘各种交通工具来往在四九城,过程很受用。
周一周二是最轻松的日子,因为没有希望也没有绝望。
周三开始焦虑,盼周末会有下一轮的安排,会有在不断寒冷的天气里继续城市穿梭游戏的安排。
周五到周日,被上了发条,不断遇见一些人,一些事情,还有很多问题,笔试或者面试。
上周日晚间考完中行走在过街天桥上,寒风凛冽,
哦,原来,这就是找工作,很过瘾呢。
笑。三
老同学们,都在计划着出国读研,无论是工科还是文科。
一个个的,很有劲头儿,虽然都难以掩饰内心的慌张与不安。
已经没有热情去谈谈以后会怎么样,视线的焦点全部集中在各种offer上。
的确,offer就是未来,就是生活,就是金钱,让我们怎么能忽视她的存在呢?
所以,好心人,麻烦您,给个offer。四
生活不易,很早听说这四个字,然后越来越理解了。
想想以后我们需要承受的,至多能假装轻松一笑,然后到背人的地方唏嘘不已。
我们能做的,只是我们自己。
没有鼓励自己或者说出什么豪言壮语的激情了,但是路要走下去,日子要过下去。
亲爱的,让我们相互支持吧。五
平安夜,辗转各处,但是终究没有得到一张软软的大床。
在和合谷坐着,看周围的年轻人们,你们到底是怎么面对生活的呢?
是战无不胜的强者?抑或是垂头丧气的逃兵。
你们有大把的青春吧?!我却觉得,再也没有那些在空场踢球的日子了。
平安夜被彩灯塞满,但是圣诞节的早晨,除了公交车的循规蹈矩、出租车的张扬,只剩下暗淡无光的白天鹅。
它在几个小时前,还是超级明星。
我们乖乖地上床睡觉,赶在黎明到来之前。
可是几个小时后,小敬给我留言说:黎叔,你苍老了。。。
我能做什么呢?
对着屏幕,吃吃笑。 -
2008-10-04
出土福娃
话说,奥林匹克中心区,一举超过故宫八达岭,这几天变成全北京人口密度最大的地方。
那个地方,想当年咱注册卡还好用的时候,带着视频饮料跟媳妇大摇大摆闯进去过,结果把俺俩人累得贼死,吃了一顿提前涨价的麦当劳以后,仓皇逃出。
后来再去,有了经验了,按照顺序走赞助商的展厅,该看的该拿的都看了拿了,感觉这奥运会开得真是丰富多彩啊。
中心区的建筑自不必说,下沉广场里有我媳妇的师傅,哈哈。
各个赞助商的展厅还是能给人深刻印象的,个人比较喜欢欧米茄的,可口可乐的,强生的。欧米茄里有好多好多表,另外游泳比赛的计时器和前台mm也很吸引人。可口可乐不愧是营销大师,整个馆各个部分都围绕着一个大的主题,为奥运为中国加油。而强生的展厅充满了人情味儿,还有兵马俑的陈列很是吸引人。
可惜,现在去的朋友们,什么也看不到了。。。
那天看到一消息,说有一人,挖出一福娃,据称至今几百年历史了。
看来中国人就是厉害,什么叫融汇古今,这才见识。
------迪加奥特曼分割线------
那个7000亿美金的大单终于签了,看布什这双农场主兼油矿工人的手,也挺不容易的。
看看他们怎么用这7000亿,或者,直接都交给巴菲特??
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2008-10-03
流动性?

对于美国金融危机的讨论在继续进行着,布什用了“必须”二字敦促众议院通过救援法案。
减税等方面的改动似乎给了政府很大的信心,但是这也从一个侧面反映出白宫已经没有退路了。
对于救援法案,很多人在持谨慎的怀疑态度,从连续下挫的三大股指和油价就能够清晰看出,市场的信心依然低落。
不止是投资者,很多机构的专家也对法案到底能起到对大作用表示怀疑,因为这样的注资似乎并不能帮助解决房价下跌和银行资金短缺问题。
更可悲的是,现在美国所做的似乎不是一心一意解决问题,而陷入了更大规模的利益争斗中,国会的各方力量可能没有意识到危机的严重性。覆巢之下岂有完卵,谁能翻译成英文,呵呵。
今天看了篇文章,也算是对这次危机的另一种解读吧,贴在这里,绝无盗版之意。
AMERICA'S CHANCE TO KICK ITS ASIAN ADDICTION
David Pilling 2008-10-03
Did America hang itself with Asian rope? I put this to a Chinese official last week and, quick as a flash, he responded: “No. It drowned itself in Asian liquidity.”
Asia's part in America's financial downfall has been two-fold. First, shiploads of cheap goods from China and other low-cost producers helped keep a lid on US prices. That lulled the Fed, with its tight focus on the consumer price index, into thinking it could have it both ways: high growth with low inflation.
Second, Asian bank reserves of $4,300bn (£2,400bn) combined with petrodollars to provide the US with almost endless liquidity. This poured into US Treasuries and Fannie and Freddie bonds, suppressing US interest rates, inflating the housing bubble and funding buy-now pay-later consumption.
Western banks and hedge funds used Asia, particularly Japan, as an enchanted pool of money. Through the so-called carry trade, they dipped their ladles into its ultra-low interest rate waters and splashed the proceeds around on exotic, high-yield instruments. For a while it all worked beautifully. You know the rest.In one sense, this is a story of Asian prudence versus US recklessness. By accumulating vast savings – China and Japan alone boast 40 per cent of global central bank reserves – Asians have lived below their means so that Americans could live beyond theirs. Asia bankrolled US budget and trade deficits and provided the cash for banks and individuals to go on a spending spree and for Washington to fight wars in Afghanistan and Iraq.
“Arguably, the US overextended itself in international relations and in the management of its domestic situation. It spent way beyond its means,” says Fang Xinghai, director general of Shanghai's Financial Services Office.
While it lasted, China and others were able to grow at supercharged rates by lending to Americans so that they could import its products. Now that wheeze is over, Asia will suffer too. But even if China, which grew at 12 per cent last year, loses 4 percentage points of growth, it will still be clipping along at 8 per cent. If the US or Europe loses the same amount, it will be deep in recession.
Wall Street's 9/11 could thus turn out to be an important milestone on the road to Asia's century. US presidential candidates invoked that possibility last week in their debate. Barack Obama referred to China's recent space walk as a sign that it was catching up while America floundered. John McCain, attacking waste in Washington, said: “We owe China $500bn.” Mr Obama went one better, saying (more accurately) China “now holds $1,000bn of our national debt”. Linking finance with power, he added: “There has never been a country on earth that saw its economy decline and yet maintained its military superiority.”
There has been a cautious reappraisal in parts of Asia too. “More people understand that America is not as great as it was 10 years ago,” says Shen Dingli of Fudan university in Shanghai. “This is not a time for China to be on a par with America. But the relative shift of the centre of gravity does bring China more confidence.”
For the moment, though, the fates of Asia and the US remain more aligned than opposed. Chinese, Singaporean and other Asian investors have lost billions on their stakes in failing western institutions. Asian governments have insisted on the need for a US bail-out to protect their sovereign investments.
US woes bounce back in other ways, too. In August, Japan recorded its first seasonally adjusted monthly trade deficit in a quarter of a century after shipments to the US slid 22 per cent. Net exports are not expected to contribute anything to Chinese growth this year.
More fundamentally, the pattern of flows from Asia to the US and other deficit countries could change. If the US can wean itself off what has been an unhealthy addiction, the shock could yet turn out to be to its long-term advantage. It has already started increasing exports and importing less.
In another sign of change, the big gap between returns that drove Japanese capital to the US has narrowed sharply for bonds and disappeared altogether for equity, says Peter Tasker of Kleinwort Dresdner. “This could be the crumbling of the configuration that has seen capital surplus countries funding US consumption,” he says.
For that to happen Asians would have to start spending more at home. That could be brought about by a deep recession, which would oblige them to run down savings. Alternatively, Asian governments could encourage their citizens to break savings habits and go on a US-style binge.
Chinese citizens, whose consumption accounts for a measly third of national output – against 70 per cent in the US – could certainly spend more. But Beijing, which has already taken steps to prick the housing bubble, appears in no hurry to encourage reckless spending.Says Mr Fang: “I'm not sure you should encourage people to borrow in order to spend. That is what bankrupted the US.”
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2008-08-28
零八贰八

------和老婆在丰垒的工作人员餐厅。
没什么,就是看着这日子挺吉利的,又赶上好久没写字了。
奥运会开完了,志愿者当完了。
最后那天,整个场馆在主场里狂欢,所有人都自动变身蓝色证件。
被灌了一口香槟、一口红酒、被抹了一块蛋糕,自动撤下。
溜达到ISF在本垒后的房间,把老婆带进来,从冰箱里拿一瓶久违的果粒橙,陷进宽松舒适的沙发,今儿晚上我们是国际垒联主席。
老婆这次要比我累得多,天气炎热,好多可爱的找不到妈妈和厕所的孩子,好多不讲理的该拉出去枪毙的组织观众。
每次见她被晒得打蔫儿说不出话,每次透过PRD的窗户看烈日下看台上的她,我真的很心疼。
老婆很坚强,很要强。老婆是好样儿的,老婆我们一直相伴左右。
手边是我们刚刚送过来的报告,呵呵,劳动成果,透过厚厚的玻璃窗看主场灯光璀璨处那些跳呀,闹呀的人们,连吕区都被抹了蛋糕,奥运结束了。
想想这次,比较世锦赛和中国杯,平静了许多,最后两天甚至都没有把相机拿过来,以至于现在整理照片发现都是合影。
从进场馆到结束,安静地作所有事情,串口、联络人、客户需求、志愿者培训、机器、纸张、系统、沟通、排班、饭票、激励物资……好多开始之前想想头大的事情就这么顺理成章地完成了。
当然要谢谢经理的信任和指导,郑岭经理、李永经理、仁杰经理,还有小黎姐和顾江峰大哥。
也要谢谢PRD里所有志愿者的配合,大家不论在学校如何,进了PRD,全力以赴于我们共同的工作。
最后的狂欢,特意没跟大家在一起,因为我不想作为主管说那些各奔东西的话。。。
在ISF的房间里坐着,看着,被电话叫走,去找大家身上的升级卡。
升级卡收集完毕,听见集群里守超收机器的声音,真是耐不住了,联系上,一起干。
守超站在三垒方向战壕门口,看场子里欢快的人群,抽泣,流泪,这是个汉子。
我们收松下的电视,42寸,监督两个工人卸,技术的其他助理在收联想的机器、网通的机器、歌华的机器、还有集群。
他们没有人去参加狂欢,我觉得,这才是告别的最美的方式。
小黎姐说,最后时刻还保持冷静的头脑,好样的。
我说,我这是闹不起来了。
说实话,比起蛋糕满天飞,快门卡嚓响,我还是更享受集群里呼叫的声音。
比起结束,我还是更享受过程。
“海波,海波,收到请回答!”
“收到,请讲。”
“C69A已经收到,完毕。”
“好的,完毕!”
我能去伦敦吗?







